Adulterate—to make impure
Advocate—to support; to speak in favor of
Aerie—a nest built high in the air; an elevated and secluded dwelling
Aesthetic—concerning the beauty of something
Aggrandize—to increase in power and reputation
I've been having some anxiety about my future this week. The requirements, the rigorous instructions, the forms, the applications—all of it was metaphysically filling in my head, piling up on my desk, filling in every free space of my planner, just consuming me. I wished that I could escape the gravity of it all and fly to my aerie in the sky. How am I supposed to keep my motivation up? Well, I've been focusing on the aesthetics of grad school and a career. Grad school offers a lot of perks like education, personal mentoring, financial aid, benefits of being a student, and the inevitably bigger paycheck. Also, my parents and brother and boss and co-workers advocate grad school and in turn will advocate me to any administrator or registrar. I have confidence that I can get good recommendations; I'm grateful that I've never had an affected relationship with the people closest to me. Nonetheless, my fears and un-confidences keep adulterating my will to persevere. I'm worried about not scoring well, not being good at studying, not knowing what to do next. I don't know where I'll be this time next year, and I wish I could know that. Anyway, if I keep thinking positively, then I will certainly be able to aggrandize myself through persistence and progression.